It has been forever and after reading old post, I wish I could say things haven't changed but damn. I guess I would have to say 2009 was THE year for change. Too much stuff went down last year and I wish I could take a lot of the bad things back but "you can't regret what once made you smile." I've been trying for almost a year now to make myself happy and think positive but those days never leave my mind and it just seems to make it harder. For now I'll just keep smiling and hoping for the best for everyone. I’m not too sure about the end, they may get married or just stay friends but whatever happens, she’s just happy she found him ..

Just know I miss ya
Signed XOXO, Panda

:) !

69 DEGREES?? WHAAAAT! it is 69 degrees outside and i am the happiest person ever right now.

i was dreading going to class this morning but it was actually really fun! probably not going to my 400 class due to the awesome weather outside. fuck dat!

it feels so much like summer and i am so excited. fresh city and fire at my house tonight anyone?? not like anyone reads this to know that but oh well! off to clean my car and enjoy the weather!

peace out brah

no minus the bear and i'm pissed :(

since when did i start writing in livejournal again? ahhh

soo i think i did pretty well on my bio test today which is good!
seeing minus the bear tomorrow and i can not waittt
nice weather for the next couple days makes me very happy!

wow i don't think i've been happy about this many things in so long, weirdd
probably won't last too long anyway haha we'll seee

welp time for class and shmokey shmoke with ktp then work
everyone come get coffee k?

kbye

sooo i am slowly getting sucked back into livejournal and i love it!

spring break was fun and i love my friends. not looking forward to going back to school at all tomorrow then working for the next 4 days. but only a little more than a month and its summer! i cant waitttt

well that was exciting
gotta go to work now ughh

ciao!

now that i have found someone, i'm feeling more alone than i ever have before ..

i thought this is when i am supposed to be the happiest i have been in so long, but i was wrong.

this sucks.

i can honestly say that for the first time in a looong time i am completely happy with my life, i love my friends and yeah school can suck but i love it. lets just hope it stays this way foreverrrrr

yeah so last time i wrote in this, the summer had just begun. and now i am moving into college, today. shitttttttttt.

wowits been over a month.. alot has happened .. but its summer and it s amazingg

hmm im tired and going tothe beach with my bffes tomorrow
yayyy!

i've come to the conclusion that there really is no possible way to make you even the least bit happy. so i'm finally giving up. good fucking luck.

so i just got home and i already miss it. i love everything about new york. since i had no computer all i did was take pictures which i will post soon soon soon!

now i get to go sleep in MYYYYYYYY bed. yay.

i am not looking forward to school and then work right after. ew.

woww i havent updated in forever. not like you missed out on much. life, well it's been better. school still sucks but its okay because its pretty much over. and then its college with my jociepoop and i can not waittt.

now i am leaving for new york and unfortunately coming back thursday, as opposed to never which would be nice but hey its less school so whatev. hopefully i'm a happier person when i get back.

byyyyyyyyyye!

today was such a good day ..

first off i got into RIC! not my first choice butttt its still exciting.

thennnn we had a picnic along with pictures, laughs, stories and yelling all with my bffes. it felt like summer today and i cant wait. its going to be awesome. i can feel it.

besides the fact that my head might explode due to the excess snots shoved up my nose, i am still happy. and its a good feeling.

oh and P.S VESTIDOS ARE BACK! and crazier than ever .. you better watch out.

<3

Well im in digi media with evan dan and chris. fuck kathy fo real smoke all the L

owes evan and nancy money. bitch
okay well im going to go have a wonderfull day now
bye kiddies
i have a sauage on my back

this was evan

does anyone even know what twork it means?

and did you know that it was possible to have so much hate for one person, because i didnt, until today anyway. haaa. whatever.

ANYWAYYY i got a $450 scholarship!!! along with about 50 other people. ahah
and and and I GOT A TATTOOOOOOOOOOOOO! and i love it and it didnt hurt and i want moreeeee. yay.

now i am going to nap. i never nap. weirddddd.

and it doesnt feel any different. not that it should? actually it doesnt even feel like my birthday. i kinda wish it wasnt yet .. but whateverrrrr. its raining and i hate rain.

2 MORE DAYSSS!!!

yeah that's right in 2 days i will be a woman. haha that doesnt really mean anythinggg to me at all. but its still exciting i suppose.

tonight definitely made up for the terrible week i had. first i went to subway & dress shopping with caityy and actually found a dress(thanks to her) and i looove it thennn we went to the hockey game with everyone which was funnn. and we wonnn. yaya. the car ride was even better. i love screaming and peeing my pants with caityy baby haha. then we went to dennys and saw IAN AND JOHN. then madddd people showed up. i got shot in teh eye with a spit ball TWICE. and then multiple tiems in the breasts haha. but whatever it was such a good night and my friends make me soo happy :D ahhhh im lovin life <3

hopefully things stay this way because i like being happy
and OH YEAH! in 5 days .. I WILL BE A WOMAN. yeah thats rightt. im exciteddd, im getting a tattoo, hopefully.. sometime haha. any ideas anyone?

but yeahhh i have to get up in 5 hours to work for 7 hours, pretty sweet!

plans tomorrow?
FRIENDS CALL MEMEMEMEME!



for all of this, i'm better off without you ..

tonight is definitely a dashboard night ...
i hate dashboard nights.